Profile For Shaunda P.

Thank you Brett for your quick response in keeping this forum a safe place.

Stephanie,

As a single woman, I drove solo over the road for several years. Now I am married to a driver and I am "off the road" at home dealing with everything and working full time. We do not have children. Frustration, loneliness, exhaustion and the feeling of being under appreciated are all common for both parties in the relationship.

Trust me, he is lonely too! He is likely feeling inadequate when unable to step in and fix things for you. I wrote the following to myself, in my journal, at a time on the road when I was feeling some of the same basic emotions, for probably different reasons. I hope is helps you and your sweetheart to approach all aspects of your relationship with love, peace, acceptance and respect.

9/14/04 Sometimes in the paths of life we encounter some hills that are rather difficult to climb. When we are low on the spiritual, physical, mental and emotional fuel required for the climb we end up staying at the bottom. Once in a while the stay at the bottom of the hill is a form of rest. Other times it is a form of hell, damnation, death or annihilation.

There are valuable riches to be found in those places throughout life. We tend to speed through life and forget to slow down and let our personal angels and life lessons catch up with us. Taking the time to absorb and metabolize what we have learned and combining that with who we are in our essence allows us to continue up the hill with a renewed sense of our personal goals, desires and aspirations.

I would invite you to be aware, while at the bottom of this hill (sometimes it seems like a pit that goes as deep as the center of the earth), you have the opportunity to come to know who you are and what your values are about. Test those values, stretch yourself and absorb your life lessons thus far.

I believe when we are called to a task it is not simply given to us especially if the task is to care for the souls of the planet such as your calling. There are tests in preparing you for what you have accepted.

In your own time take a rest from your weariness, frustration, jealousy and anger. Wallowing in hell sometimes has benefits. When you are ready to climb the hill, you will.

Love, hope, faith and peace are waiting patiently.