Profile For Will B.

Thank you for the thoughtful replies.

Hi All. I need some help.

I have completed a carrier's CDL school and will be leaving in the next week or so with my trainer. I have been excited to become a driver but one thing concerns me: I have depression and have been treated for something described as being within the bipolar spectrum. I actually did not think I would pass my CMV Dot medical exam but I did. Even though I put this condition on the form and listed the drug I take the doc never questioned me about it even though it appears the FMCSA requires them to do so.

My "disability" is controlled but I can occasionally become so overwhelmed be reduced to a period of deep sobbing. From time to time (once a year maybe) stress can also result in my running away from a stressful situation. In a regular job that has been to simply say something like, "**** this!" and storm out the office door. My concern is that should any of this happen while driving I may become a hazard on the road.

I am under a lot of pressure to take this job. I have been unemployed for almost a year (I lost my last job after a stressful moment when I said "**** this" and walked out). My wife and I are close to losing our house and bills are deep. She tells me to get over it and just do this. I guess I am writing here for some recognition that my concerns are valid and that I am being responsible and safe. Others, given that I don't have a job or money, would say I have been irresponsible.

Sorry to "Dear Abbey" the forum but I don't know what to do. Or, maybe better said, I know what to do but can't figure out how to do it.

Thank you......