Im Really Tired Of This, This Week...

Sorry I have not replied yet but I have been driving and with more determination to be a problem solver than a problem creator. Near the end is when I saw the light and reliefe that it finally was done and now I am at my reciever!

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Rob T thats exactly what I think God is teaching me. I have had a hard upbringing and if you want to hear more on that you can pm me on messenger or facebook. I have had a whole lot of hurt and pain from people, to feeling like I have been deserted by God to then finding God in 2018 and then still I often allow emotions to overcome me with fear I chose something wrong. God I think may very well want me to heal through this experience and to learn to trust this is where he has me. I am also afraid of not making it or making a bad truck driver and that fear goes deep. I sometimes wonder if I have failed God or what I am doing wrong for him to put me in these hardships. Im learning God tests those whom he loves. My heart hurts, I am ready for healing.

Victor it's hard to tell by the pic, but was the trailer sitting low as well? If it was dump the airbags(if your tractor is equipped with the switch) after you're hooked reinflate and it may lift enough off to move the trailer forward out of the mud. Was it an option to lay on the deck and crank it up enough to get out then finish cranking? If I was OTR I would invest in a pair of rubber rain boots for this situation.

You didn't hit anything and kept dispatch informed what was going on. You're doing good. Keep it up. Don't let the bad/rough days cause you to make any rash decisions.

Packrat I am not sure I follow.

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Packrat I am not sure I follow.

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I'm not sure you're following, either.

Make your own luck. What happened before is the past, so get over it. We keep trying to point you in the right direction, but I wonder if it's working.

I saw nothing in those pictures that wasn't an easy fix.

A reversed glad hand is like making a PBJ for a person who likes the peanut butter on top of the jelly and you hand it to them with the jelly on top by accident...it's an easy fix so to speak. Just flip it, yo.

And mud is your friend. Makes you grateful for the times it isn't part of the process. A tip- work hard in whatever footwear you have for the mud but stow those shoes between the driver's seat and driver's door. Keeps the mud contained to the working area and not the living area.

Victor we all have had our struggles in life. My upbringing wasnt as rough as most peoples but it wasnt all roses. At some point we need to understand that our past doesnt need to dictate our future. I was bullied for about 8 years in school and it was one reason I chose to do my senior year of high school online. I know my parents love me, but I didnt grow up hearing that they're proud of me. The only time I remember hearing it was when I told them I passed my CDL on first attempt. I always blamed myself for my parents divorce due to medical issues I had as a kid. From ages 1 to 4 I had a big problem with fever seizures to the point we were on a first name basis with the paramedics from what I hear.

My last one was at grandmas funeral in October 1993 when I was off and on seizing for well over an hour. We never did family vacations, parents couldnt afford daycare in the summer so we were sent 100 miles away to stay with my aunt. After the divorce dad started dating and my now stepmom (that has divorced and remarried him 3 times) gave him the choice her or his kids. He chose her. Dad paid hardly any child support and mom worked her butt off and we barely scraped by. I wanted to play sports but I knew mom couldnt afford it so I made excuses when she encouraged me to try out for the team. It took me a long time to get over it but what good is it to allow my past to dictate what my future is.

I went about a year of no contact with dad for other issues. I recently reached out to him and told him that lifes too short and I may not agree with everything he says or does but its unfair to my kids to prevent them from having a relationship with grandpa. When my daughter was born (october 2018) my mom agreed to drive the 5 hours down here to spend the day with my 2 boys. We even scheduled my wife to have the baby a week early, I offered mom $500 to help with gas, and the missed time at work. She backed out 2 days before the due date because she didnt even ask for the time off instead told me "I didnt ask for it off because I thought I'd have the day off" despite it being 3 days and days she typically works. We didnt have family nearby at the time and that was too short of notice to make other arrangements so my wife had the baby alone while I stayed at home. At first i was upset but what good is it going to do to be angry? Instead of allowing myself to be in a negative place I've used what Ive experienced in my relatively short life to push myself to do better. It also pushes me to make sure my kids have the best life possible.

My childhood may not have been terrible, but it wasnt as good as what i seen for my friends. My wife spent several years as a child witnessing her stepdad beat the daylights out of her mom. She was bullied her entire school years due to weight and its left an impact. Those things among others I'm not willing to post had a negative impact on our relationship but I've helped her get to the point of letting go. One big upside to being an adult is that you're much more easily able to rid yourself of toxic people or environments. That was one thing I loved about when we moved to FL, nobody knew us or our past and we were able to be the people we wanted. Getting rid of Facebook also helped. Everybody tries to paint their lives as perfect and it makes people jealous.

Always remember there are people who are much worse off and going through worse. I'm sure others here that many of us look up to, especially our moderators, had their struggles in life and have been successful business owners. I'm not sure if you've watched Undercover Boss but one thing that most of those CEO's of fortune 500 companies have in common is that they used their life experiences as a way to motivate them to do better.

If you're worried about failing as a truck driver use that to motivate you to become the best truck driver you can. Look at it this way. If you miss the "landing" in a truck you just pull up and try again. Worse case scenario you hit another truck. You will live to see another day. In a plane if you miss the landing you're likely going to have much different results. You'll need to gain more confidence in yourself and your abilities especially if you're going to be a pilot. We all know you can do it you just need to dig deep and believe in yourself my friend. Regarding your past......

I'm not a really religious person but remember God helps those that help themselves. He also knows you're able to overcome the challenges you've faced. What works for me is instead of focusing on what you DON'T have, focus on what you DO have. My childhood wasn't as good as I wish it was but at the end of the day my parents taught us right from wrong, we had a roof over our heads and food in our stomachs.

Victor I’ve picked up there at that mud hole many times it’s always fun. I also deliver to that upper Marlboro capital place a lot. I love the wallboard loads. Remember to have them forklifts lift them tarps for you. After I get my bills signed I always ask them if they can lift my tarps for me. Then I’ll meet them at my tarps to help get them on the forks. With these wallboard loads things are always going to go wrong. Eventually you will be in and out quicker than you can show a 30.

How is a glad hand half sitting the wrong way?

Rob T. , that post brought me to tears. You really shared with your heart and soul. I hope Victor C. II (O/P) gleans a ton from that post, Rob. You know I love your style, honesty, etc., and have mad respect for you, man!

Victor C. II ... take heed, and I'm here for ya, too.

Victor C. (new !) Welcome to TruckingTruth forum; start a thread and introduce yourself, if you'd like. You've come to a great place!

Be safe, y'all~!

Anne :)