Am I In Over My Head Here?

This sounds like a dray service company, perhaps a small one. With thin profit margins. My first question Ernie; how much homework did you do to check them out? How is their equipment? How many drivers?

I couldn't glean much about the company from their website, except that they are a port LTL and drayage company. The reviews I read online were mixed, though mostly positive. It appears as though the company is growing, which has to be good in some respect. One driver said everything was good, except no benefits. That was two years ago, and they offer benefits now. There were the typical one-star reviews ('lies, lies, no overtime pay, have to lie on log books,' etc.), but I've seen those with both of the other companies I've worked for.

Making demands and threats? Do you really think that’s the right way to handle things as a new employee? You are a driver, but the CEO. And then entertaining a “back-stabbing” conversation with the person assigned to train you...bad form Bro. You got sucked-in that quick! Bottom feeder, get trained and stay away from anyone who tries to pull you under. You should not involve him (the trainer) in any of this. He’s already revealed to you that he cannot be trusted. He’ll run his mouth to management about you, guard your words around him and stick to business. Be professional. Address your issues with management.

Luckily I will not be training with him this week.

You mentioned they were trying to calm you down. Did you lose your cool over this? In front of them? Of everything you wrote this actually is most concerning and can hurt your career progression in so many ways. I suggest focusing on what triggers this kind of reaction and work on limiting the emotional response. Huge problem for a new employer if the think they are dealing with a Diva. Gut check...I think you know what I can say here, others already have.

I did not raise my voice with anyone. I was probably a PITA, though. Not a good look.

My advice? Don’t be a dumbass and quit. You’d have three companies on your resume, heading to your fourth in what? 18 months? Work it out. Give them a chance. Give yourself a chance! I think many have given you very good advice here on how-to accomplish this. Get it done.

Take charge of your career, take pride being a professional. Think about what you are doing and expect there to be unforeseen challenges; adjust using your head and keep your cool. Pay your dues embracing your “lowest man on the totem pole” status and prove they “right” for hiring you. Be “that” driver who they consider a top performer. You’ve been here for a while and should know what that means. Read our dairies, read articles in the blog section, get your trucker mind reset and right.

Commit to this company and give them your very best. You’ll have nothing to be embarrassed about. I look forward to reading your updates and sharing with us some success stories.

Good luck.

Thank you for the encouragement. I am better than this, I know it.